finally. Dr khoo promised me that the hair will start falling off this wednesday or thursday. It began yesterday with a few strands whenever i ran my fingers through it. Today, it is leaving its trail everywhere. If i was in a martial arts movie, instead of my blood trail, my enemy will have to look my hair trail.
actually if i had my way, i wld hv shaved my hair before my 1st chemo. But mum was very traumatised, she insisted that we wait for the miracle to happen. Well, it is true that not all who receive chemo lost their mane but that is an extremely minority group. If anyone had listened to the conversation between me & mum, explaining the advantages of shaving, one wld be confused who is the cancer patient!
u see mum belongs to the generation who believe that femininity is defined by such attributes like beautiful hair, being married, knowing how to cook, do housework, look after your husband. In reality, i only possesse the 1st 2 conditions and now i am going down to juz one!
though she never said anything, what she 'sim tia' (heart pain) most is the demise of my left breast. And i am feelin remorseful too - for not missing it a tiny bit - pun unintended! A friend asked whether i felt 'lop-sided' . Aiyo, such weight problem is only reserved for ladies with huge assests lah.
the only problem i hv to solve is how to wear my beautiful dresses which require to show a little curve. But i shouldn't call it a problem - these days with so many breast enhancer pads that come in different shape & sizes & material, the only problem is to find something cheap & good!
alas, i used to sneer & look down on these enhancer products. And i hv to turn to them now to fill the void. 做人真的要留点余地，以后好下台 - one must always leave some space, or else there will be no steps to go off stage.
yeah, a brand new me tmr! watch out for my new hair do.
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